Bored.... Blarg... and still awake!

What time is it: 7:39 am what is your name: Clovendid you eat today: Yeswhat did you eat: Cherry Danishhow old are you : 17 *sob*what is your favorite tv show: Tv is decadent, and i dont watch it! hmph!what is your favorite movie: VELVET GOLDMINE!!!do you like underwear: sometimes are you wearing underwear: um... i am not wearing anywhat day is it: Sunday i think...do you like this forward: it doesnt mattter... i cant sleep so it keeps me busy.what is your gender: Depends who you askwhat color are your underwear: Fucking bitch! I am not wearing any!do you like gel: no do you like hairspray: nodo you have hairspray or gel in your hair: NO!do you have hair: yeshave you been to any concerts this summer: yesare you going to last chance summer dance: WTF is that?have you been to valleyfair this year: no are you going there this year: nowhat is your favorite ride there: I dont fucking go, so i obviously dont have one!have you ever been to valleyfair: yesdo you like food: sometimesdo you have more than 1 email address: yeswhat is it: fuck you!do you own any cds: yeah, not as many as i used towhat are they: ummm i dunno, i never listen to emhow many: i dunno.... i used to have a bunch more but they got stolendo you like music: Yes!!!!!!!!!do you like to make faces: Not usually do you have braces: nowhat color are your rubberbands: i dont have anywhen do you get them off: Off of what?do you brush your teeth: yesdo you like cellphones: nodo you have one: nodo you own a watch: nodo you have a pool: nodo you have a computer in your house: yes, 2are you stupid: i dont think soare you weird: depends on who you askare you bored: yes!!!!!!!what is your favorite movie: Didnt i just answer this?!?do you like movies: somehave you seen any movies this summer: yeswhat did you see: Velvet Goldmine were they good: Fuck yeah!do you know me: no, probably notdo you like me: nodo you like the internet: only when i get to talk to Patch, and when i am d/l... other then that no!do you like cd players: noare you on the computer: WTF do you thinkdo you like paper clips: sometimesdo you like soda: no, but i am an addictwhat kind: grr... Dr Pepperdo you live in a house: yeahdo you like numbers: dependsdo you like roads: nodo you like people: not usuallydo you like cheese: sometimesdo you like pizza: yeahdo you like spray bottles: i dunnodo you like getting your hair cut: nodo you like taking showers: yeah, i take them at least once a day, sometimes more merely cuz i am boreddo you like swimming: NO!do you like stamps: sure... they taste good...hehehedo you like pens: yesdo you like speakers: Yeah, good ones anywayshave you ever spilled water on yourself: yesi have when i was writing this survey: ummm sorry to hear thatdo like swiffers: nodo you like keyboards: better then a mouse i supposedo you like to type: nodo you like staples: after i swallowed a bunch when i was little, and stapled my lower lip, i am indifferent about emdo you like chicken: sometimesdo you like games: sometimeswhen did you get a computer: whenever...do you live somewhere besides minnesota: i dont live in Minnesotahave you ever been to florida or hawaii: nodo you like lifesavers: sometimesdo you like coats: yeah i supposewhat is your favorite word: Neatowhat is your favorite number: 8do you like calenders: nodo you like hammers: sure...do you like rocks: Shut up! Why would i like rocks...?have you ever seen snow: yesdo you play any sports: nowhat sports: nonedo you like fans: yes i live in azdo you have air conditioning: yesdo you like toys: yeahdo you like printers: suredo you have a checkbook or credit card: nodo you work somewhere: nowhere: i dunno, you tell medo you like rulers: ...do you have a playstation/playstation2: bothhave you ever been out of state: yeahhave you ever been on a plane: yeahhave you ever been on a cruise: nodo you have a boat: yeahhave you ever been fishing: yeahhave you ever caught a fish: yrahhow big was it: i dunnohave you ever been hunting: nodid you get anything: nowhat: i dunno, you tell medo you have a car: nowhat color is it: imaginarywhat kind of car: imaginarydo you have your liscense: nodo you have a printer: yeahdo you have color ink in it: red and blue, yeahhave you ever been to another country: nohave you ever written a survey: nohow many questions: ...was it similar to this one: ...do you like to eat bananas: nowhat is your favorite food: HUMAN!!!!!!!!!!!do you like spaghettios: not reallydo you like rollerblades: i dont caredo you own rollerblades: nodo you have a bike: nodo you have a 4wheeler: nohow big is it: ...are you getting bored: YES!do you wish you had a different name: nodo you have a tv: yesdo you like tv: nodo you have any pets: nowhat kind: nonewhat are there names: ...have you been to mall of america: no what is your favorite store: dont have onewhat is your middle name: none of your businessdo you like your middle name: nohow do you spell mississippi: ...do you have a fence in your yard: yeahwhat color is your house: uglywhat is your favorite mall: dont like mallswhen was the last time you went shopping: i dunnodo you like laser tag: sure...do you like mini golfing: sure...do you like to build things: no, too lazydo you like scotch tape: nodo you like computer games: sure do you like peanuts: nodo you have freckles: yeahwhat color are your eyes: brown, sometimes greenwhat color is your hair: an odd brown red do you like to go grocery shopping: nowhat is your favorite day of the week: anyday i see Patchdo you like bathrooms: i supposedo you like to go to the bathroom: ummm no do you have a pencil sharpener: nodo you have a big screen tv: yeahdo you have a vcr: yeahdo you watch football games: nowhat is your favorite team: ...err...do you like the packers or vikings better: neitherdo you have keys: yeahdo you lock your window at night: umm... nowhat is your biggest fear: Patch...what is the scariest thing that ever happened to you: i stubbed my toe? do you like slippers: sure...do you have slippers: nodo you sleep on a bed: sometimesdo you have a soft or hard pillow: bothhow many pillows do you have: 6-8how many blankets do you have on your bed: 1have you ever been to a concert: yeahwhich one: who played: many, i did work at em... do you stay up late at night: sometimeshow late: i dunnodo you live near a lake: i live in Arizona do you know how to swim: yeahdid you take swimming lessons: nohave you ever been in a sport just because a friend was: nohave you ever bought a cd for just 1 song: yeahdo you have a phonebook: yeahdo you have a phone in your room: yeahwhat color is it: silver and blackdo you have a seprate line: yeahwhat time is it: 7.57

failure is the only option....this timeit was....

well i feel bad... i am the moster... i am the Beast... arg... sorry... bi bi

Waking the Dead, or are the Living Sleeping?

Well i just woke up.... hehehe...the day is at least half way through... Tonight i am probably going to go see Mission UK with Patch... hehehe... Mission UK is grand. Hmm, oh yeah. Perhaps soon i will get together with this person Jay, that i met online. I dont think this weekend will work, maybe next weekend...? Well... hmmm nothing really else... you know i dont know what me having a journal is for, seeing i usually write very small entries and it really is just babble... but yeah... oh well... bi bi

Consumtion of Hatred can equal Misery

Well i am sad, for the one that is sad. I am sad for the one that is Mad. I am sad for the one that has the least. I am sad for the one that one that means the most...

Surprising Turns in Expected Places...

Well last night we had Practice... It was shit cuz every problem with the shit that was there, went wrong it seemed... Almost feel asleep at Wally's... oh well... what can i say, his couch is comfy...But i ended having the best time ever... like everything went wrong, but its was fun... odd how that works... Oh well... no more for you... bi bi

People are strange...

Well i am better i talked to Patch today... HEHEHE... right after i posted the last entry actually... she stayed in cali til the plane comes (tomorrow)... so yeah...i am gonna talk to her tonight too...*YaY*

People are strange...

Well i am better i talked to Patch today... HEHEHE... right after i posted the last entry actually... she stayed in cali til the plane comes (tomorrow)... so yeah...i am gonna talk to her tonight too...*YaY*

Beauty is only Soul Deep

well today i looked REALLY pretty, i will take a pic later... but i had no one to look pretty for... oh well maybe some day soon i will... "...Take me how i am, cuz you know i will never change...If i make it up to that big show in the sky. All i really want, is my Tv and You. It's all i need, it's all i ever needed, til the world is gone..." -VAST... sorry... umm... well i have nothing really to say... umm... bi bi...

Desolation.....

Emptiness....

Waiting For Everything, While Hardly Surviving On Nothing...

i am very bored, but hey whats new? So, i am a tad bit excitied that Patch comes home today! thats about all i have to look forward too... sad sorta...lol... oh well i enjoy it, apparently... well thats all i guess... night night

Cannibalism, Vegetarian... Hey, food is food right?

HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well lets see the highlight of my day is that i talked to Patch... i was so happy when i talked to her... its funny, i had the worst headache in the world, and i was happy... hmmm... i got new pants today! Finally...they are grand, i also got a new cd too! Its really good (and cheap). Its New Dark Noise... well... I am still a little sick, but oh well. Shit happens, right? I really dont feel Like writing now, so i will add the results from my sexual persona test... Cloven, your Sexual Persona is Omega. Did you know?As an Omega, your sexual energy is so powerful, it might be challenging for you to gauge the sexual energy of others.But that's just scratching the surface. Understand the intimate details of your sexual personality

The word of the day is... Blarg!!

Well i came home early today, i felt sick... blah... oh well... now thta i think about it i dont have anything to write...

Departure unwelcome, Arrival is Dandy

These next three days i will have little to do... *sob sob*... well, i guess i will sleep during the day now, instead of waiting. Well my nails on my left hand are all silver now... i dunno, just decided to do em that color. Well... hmm i dislike the fact that i have school still... i wish i could be out more often, i could drop out, but i really see no point in doing it my senior year... that would mean i wasted 3 and a half years at this point... oh well... maybe i shall sleep a tad easier tonight... i dunno, last noght was hard to sleep... Well... apparently there was a body mod show on TLC today that i havent seen, and since i get shows 3 hours in advance i missed it... *sob sob* ... Tomorrow is Ozzfest... i am so excited that i am not go9ing...lol...i wished i went to the European leg of the tour... they had Tool and Cradle as well as others...well i cant think of anything wlse at all so yeah... umm... bi bi...

living without has its drawbacks...

Well i was going to go shopping, but i couldnt... sob sob... oh well... sorta... but i dunno... i want the "world" that is of the moemnt out of reach... had my platforms not died...oh well.. hmm i think i will go to sleep... blah...

The Speed of Pain. The Power of Pleasure. The Martyr is Cloven

Today sucked... the only good part was talking to Patch...lol... More and more i think Decadent soceity is becoming more and more llike it was in the late 1800's... i mean indulgance in soceity is so prominant, its unbelieveable. Its just its becomeing more and more popular... but thats what it did before. Odd, i need to read the book of law... it seems like such a good book... hmmm well i have taken tests, talking to Bree, Patch left so i cant talk to her for now... i dunno... i am hungry i think... blarg... oh well... i wonder...farwell...

User Friendly, Fucking Dope Star Obscene.

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I'd never thought i'd sacrifice this much for you...

Well, today was okay i really like the morning though... it was the best morning i have had in a long time if not the best. Well *plays with spring and straw* i wonder when we are practicing again... hmmm... Today sucked... Make note not to travel in the sun... grr... it was horrible... never even got to see me bestest person in the world though *hangs head*... Maybe soon... well umm i actually slept today too... hehehe...well time to stay online til god knows when, chatting... well i cant think of anything to say... bi bi

Love/Tragedy

well today was a bad turn out....i was home all day, and no one i wanted to see came by... thats okay i suppose, nothing to do hear anyways... ah well nothing goes my way, when i want it... only chance ushers it in. Well i guess thats not all true, i get what i want if it doesnt matter that much. Its when i really want something it never happens... Well i did go out tonight i had a wonderfully miserable time. Icky. We went to the Break and it was so stupid there i couldnt believe it. Hmmm all i am doing is bitching what happened good...? you know nothing really, well i will keep my bitching to myself, Farewell

Take your hatred out on me....

Well today was a rather boring day thus far... i miss my pillow...Bree has yet to come online or come back cuz she is set to away... I havent even went to sleep yet today... grrr... oh well i wonder if Patch can give me that ride tomorrow, i sorta hope so, i told her i would pay her for the gas. I have been really bored, but i wonder why i have been really interested, almost obsessedwith Manson latly... i mena i listen to Antichrist all the time now... eh... oh well
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Why does Life live in Irony...

Why the Fuck am i up already again? i have been up playing Vampire The Masquerade: Redemption for about an hour... jesus is fucking christ... sleep for two hours and wake up... fuck... hmm... Well today's a new day... i dont wanna see anyone today except maybe the Lawn Elf. Thats about it.... boring.... oh well so am i... lol... having conversation with myself in my own journal... now you know its bad..... all these are just a repost...but yeah bi bi<tr><td></td><td>Take The Goth Type Test See which Greek Goddess you are.Go Faeries!!Take the What Faery Are You? Quiz!This quiz was made by liaGo Faeries!!Take the What Faery Are You? Quiz!This quiz was made by lia</a>What Egyptian Deity are you? go to:the quiz!Once again proving Texas breeds psychopaths.Find out How would you die in a horror movie?Which era in time are you? Your magical style is Dark. What type of Magic do you work?. Take the Magical Style Quiz by Paradox You are a vampire. What legend are you?. Take the Legendary Being Quiz by Paradox What Type of Villain are You?mutedfaith.com / <º>Which Piercing are you? Take the Whatanimal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz Which tarot card are you?you're velvet goldmine. you're sparkly and beautiful, and possibly from another world.take the which prettie movie are you? quiz, a product of the

Thoughts for Food

Fill this out about me!>>**BUT FIRST** Send a blank copy to all of your friends (including me) so>they can fill it out about you! Got it??>>BE HONEST!!!>>**AM I??**>>ugly? Fuck no.>>kind? Oh so kind.>>quiet? No. (Wich is very good. I don't like to be the one talking all the time.)>>loud? No. >>shy? Just the right amount. I don't like people that are too straight forward.>>selfish? Not at all.>>crazy? Just the way I like it. I'm crazy too.>>cute? *blushes* Very.>>pretty? Very.>>nice? Extremely.>>mean? Not at all.>>immature? Nope.>>rude? Not in the least bit.>>cool? *giggle* yep>>stupid? No. That was a stupid question.>>caring? Very much so. >>mature? Yes. Wich is a very good thing.>>a friend? A very good one at that.>>more than a friend? I wish.>>talkative? Just as much as you should be. Even though you need to talk a bit more.>>boring? Nope. >>beautiful? Very.>>creative? Very. Creativity is very good.>>smart? Yes yes.>>a jerk? Nope.>>flirt? No.>>whore? Nope.>>a psycho? Only in the good way.>>confusing? Not at all.>>sweet? Very.>>attractive? Fuck yea.>>annoying? Nope.>>funny? Way too funny. You make myface hurt. That's a good thing though.>>laid back? Yes.>>perfect? I don't know yet.>>**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**>>1. What is my phone #?: 602.943.0372>>2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: Marriageis bad. But maybe.>>(b) If u do..who do u think -- I'll marry?: Someone really sexy>>>4. Who is my best friend?: You never told me. >>5. Where did we meet?: Online. But I first saw you at Bella Morte.>>6.Have you ever had a dream about me?: Plenty.>>7. If you could change one thing about me what would it be? I don't know yet.>>8. Describe me in 3-5 words: sexy mutha fuckin' bitch. LoL>>9. Do u think I'm a virgin?: No>>10. If u could tell me one last thing what would it be?: I'm dying, can you please feed my cats?>>11. If u could ask me anything. what would it be?: **PERSONAL: Oh my. Hrmm. I don't really know. It might come up some day.>>1. I am the :best: person you know:>>2. Would u kiss me?: In a heartbeat.>>3. Do you want to be my bf/gf ?: Maybe someday. But yes.>>4. Do u ever think about me off-line?: Too much it scares me.>>5. Would you ever ask me out?: Yes.>>6. a) Have you ever had a crush on me?: yes b) Do you still?:yes>>**EVERYBODY**>>Do u wish we were closer?: yes.>>State here your completely honest opinion of me:You are a very kind person. And I haven't laughed or smiled this much in a very long time. I'm glad to have you around. And I'd like to get to know you better. Now it's time for me to hide. *blushes and runs for cover*The Fatuous Bat, PatchHast du dich im Spiegel gesehen?http://www.angelfire.com/ego2/diekkhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/DieKK/http://mp3.com/DieKrankenKatzchenHehehehe.... i like this one....

Thoughts for Food

Fill this out about me!>>**BUT FIRST** Send a blank copy to all of your friends (including me) so>they can fill it out about you! Got it??>>BE HONEST!!!>>**AM I??**>>ugly? Fuck no.>>kind? Oh so kind.>>quiet? No. (Wich is very good. I don't like to be the one talking all the time.)>>loud? No. >>shy? Just the right amount. I don't like people that are too straight forward.>>selfish? Not at all.>>crazy? Just the way I like it. I'm crazy too.>>cute? *blushes* Very.>>pretty? Very.>>nice? Extremely.>>mean? Not at all.>>immature? Nope.>>rude? Not in the least bit.>>cool? *giggle* yep>>stupid? No. That was a stupid question.>>caring? Very much so. >>mature? Yes. Wich is a very good thing.>>a friend? A very good one at that.>>more than a friend? I wish.>>talkative? Just as much as you should be. Even though you need to talk a bit more.>>boring? Nope. >>beautiful? Very.>>creative? Very. Creativity is very good.>>smart? Yes yes.>>a jerk? Nope.>>flirt? No.>>whore? Nope.>>a psycho? Only in the good way.>>confusing? Not at all.>>sweet? Very.>>attractive? Fuck yea.>>annoying? Nope.>>funny? Way too funny. You make myface hurt. That's a good thing though.>>laid back? Yes.>>perfect? I don't know yet.>>**JUST SOME QUESTIONS**>>1. What is my phone #?: 602.943.0372>>2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: Marriageis bad. But maybe.>>(b) If u do..who do u think -- I'll marry?: Someone really sexy>>>4. Who is my best friend?: You never told me. >>5. Where did we meet?: Online. But I first saw you at Bella Morte.>>6.Have you ever had a dream about me?: Plenty.>>7. If you could change one thing about me what would it be? I don't know yet.>>8. Describe me in 3-5 words: sexy mutha fuckin' bitch. LoL>>9. Do u think I'm a virgin?: No>>10. If u could tell me one last thing what would it be?: I'm dying, can you please feed my cats?>>11. If u could ask me anything. what would it be?: **PERSONAL: Oh my. Hrmm. I don't really know. It might come up some day.>>1. I am the :best: person you know:>>2. Would u kiss me?: In a heartbeat.>>3. Do you want to be my bf/gf ?: Maybe someday. But yes.>>4. Do u ever think about me off-line?: Too much it scares me.>>5. Would you ever ask me out?: Yes.>>6. a) Have you ever had a crush on me?: yes b) Do you still?:yes>>**EVERYBODY**>>Do u wish we were closer?: yes.>>State here your completely honest opinion of me:You are a very kind person. And I haven't laughed or smiled this much in a very long time. I'm glad to have you around. And I'd like to get to know you better. Now it's time for me to hide. *blushes and runs for cover*The Fatuous Bat, PatchHast du dich im Spiegel gesehen?http://www.angelfire.com/ego2/diekkhttp://groups.yahoo.com/group/DieKK/http://mp3.com/DieKrankenKatzchenHehehehe.... i like this one....

The subject is all thats important, not the matter...

Well i am talking to Patch right now, so thus i am happy...hehehe... well i am a little dissapointed i didnt get to see her and watch a movie with me pillow... oh well maybe tomorrow... hehehe... hmm... We might go to see my sister Sunday, that would be Dandy. Well i broke up with Alisha today... icky, she still wants me to fuck her, even though i am now totally void of any feeling of that sort towards her. Well Bree is talking about Duct Tape and i have nothing else to write right now....bi bi for now

Too young to Go, Too old to play....

well today i was supposed to call Patch, but her phone doesnt accept calls now... *sob sob* oh well i took new pics today... Talked to Bree today, hmmm....nothing too special... oh well nothing more to write...

Die Kranken Katzchen

Well, yesterday was good, i officially joined a band... It was funny on my friends reactions...LOL... they acted surprised for the most part...Oh well. So lets see, i have been very bored. The most excitement i got was talking to Bree, and Patch... Well, I am reading a Grand book at the moment, its Dissecting Marilyn Manson. I love it a lot, i must confess. I am really excited about Die Kranken Katzchen (http://www.angelfire.com/ego2/diekk/home.html) though... I am finally in a band...hehehe... oh well... lets see... I found another Great band today, Self Injury Inc... everyone needs to check him out as well.... hmm... well i feel a tad sick today, but oh well... whom cares, right? Well thats all i have to write at the moment... bi bi

Fall no more...

Well it has been fucking ages since the last time i wrote in here, i must admit. Well i think i am going to again... at least for a while. Well lets see... the other day i went to the Mason Jar to see Reliquary and Bella Morte. Both singers were fucking Sexy... Well right now i am getting the whoile 3 songs i dont have from one of the best Manson albums: Anti-Christ Superstar. Hmm... I am also getting one of the only NIN albums i dont have, and one of my Favorites, PrettyHate Machine. Hmm Still dating the same sexy person as before. I might go to the Mason Jar tomorrow. I will see Untold Dream. They do Depeche Mode covers and stuff. So it should be good. Steven might go with me. Hmmm... lets see i bit Alisha the other day... it was funny i was like eating her out sorta, and i bit her about an inch left of her very beautiful pussy... I leave bite marks... oh well...well i have to be careful cuz i will be 18 soon... hmm... stupid age... oh well... I did a pretty poster on me today... it was grand... I made one kid really scared... oh well... so yeah..."Turn to the gates of Heaven, to myself be damned, turn away from me..." sorry, anyways... I FOUND THE BEST NEW GROUP... TRAGIC BLACK... They are sooooooo Dandy. Tragicblack.com. I also found another good local group, Angels Take Form. He is great too... I signed up for Gotblack.com... Good web page. I found the most ignorant thing... The government is "fighting" goths, in Blue Springs... its so stupid... grrr... I found the GREATEST movie, Velvet Goldmine... Everyone should see it other then Bree, cuz you cant see it unless you are with me...lol... Grrr... i wish my Cleopatra Records catalouge would come... oh well...Hmmm what else... Oh yeah i made Keith prettier then me... hahaha... he hasnt any eyebrows anymore... and with out make up looks horrible... with though he looks sexy. Well it finally looks down for Steven and Eric... oh well... Steven will find someone else...thats all for now i think... i will write more later or tomorrow... bi bi